Lyrics paraphrased from Trent Reznor’s powerful and introspective song “Hurt.”I hurt myself last year
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The sadness once again
The opiate of choice
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everythingWhat have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurtI wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right hereAnd now I start again
A thousand miles away
I will keep myself
I will find a way…
RANDY ELROD
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I am so sorry for your pain. I think and pray for you daily.
We haven’t gone away. We are still here—right where you left us. I’d love nothing more than to be with you again. I miss you.
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Mike,
As you are well aware, the chances of someone reading this rather sterile exchange between friends is almost nil. I so happened to read your response just as I was walking into an appointment with my psychologist. In his words after reading the context of the post, and then your response, “what an extremely gracious but utterly sad response.”
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Randy, Praying daily for you. I know your heart belongs to God and he will protect it. Give yourself time to heal and let God do the work inside you. Healing comes from within. God bless.
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Thanks so much, Chandra!! Yes, much healing yet to go…
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Take time in finding a doctor that will LISTEN to you and that your comfortable with his diagnosis, if not don’t be afraid to get a 2nd or 3rd opinion. Good luck.
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Katherine, You are so right. I am very fortunate to have a gifted and brilliant psychologist with whom I’ve met weekly since last August. He has literally been a life-saver without whom I could not have written the last two lines of this lyric. Thanks for your concern.
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Johnny Cash’s version of this song has been a favorite for years…it touches something deeply inside my heart…. a lot of people don’t understand that.
Your re-working is beautiful. May you continue to heal.
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Thanks, Christy, very much! yes, the Johnny Cash video of “Hurt” is haunting and a masterpiece!
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Nice reworking of these words. I do hope and pray that you are healing. Not Everyone goes away in the end.
Johnny Cash’s version is the best, by the way.
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Thanks so much, Chris. Yes, this post, hopefully, is a part of that healing. And thanks for the reminder that not everyone goes away in the end.
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